17/10/2020 0 Comments The Rain Man.When he appears
All grows visibly darker Suddenly the air takes on dampness So she knows That the rain man has his effect on her. She is worried about, What will happen to the quilts hung out to dry At the same time strangely When the he appears she grows calm Between her fingers, between her thighs and at the corners of her eyes she grows moist. Once the rainman appeared under the eaves It was rain he caused himself but It always felt as if it was someone else’s fault That was particularly sad for him To make matters worse he Wanders the world in loneliness. Everyone knows him, They all realise immediately that it’s the rain man yet They don’t know how to understand him Once he jotted down in his notebook “Do I go to my death just making rain?” At that very moment drops of rain began to fall The ink ran The words were washed away What on earth was written there? Not even he could read it.
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11/12/2019 0 Comments The Honest ManMy hands shake in the absence of caffeine. But you are the addiction I so crave. My past cannot judge my present but only the belief of true love. I felt like a lost cloud in these unknown skies, Just to have the air rush right through me. For a moment I paused and thought about it all and I looked up the sky, There was you still floating right by my side and that was all that mattered right now. People like us - We understand the power of love, yet don't know what love means. And as my sins flow down the river, the wind brings me down in this weather. Forever I will never be the feeling you so want and remain in the darkness. 27/5/2019 1 Comment To The Love I SeekThese everyday tales are only a mere example of the uNtouched past,
There is no end to how everyday will be more haunting by the day. Sometimes it even felt like the endless winter storms that would hold me down. The nights out were long thinking I'd get to see her one lAst time... It was the cologne she bought I wore but just like every other niGht I failed to see her in everything around me, My presence felt like I brought heaven to the earth for a moment. Maybe because that's what it just was , A meMory and that's all it ever was It all made sense now, why every plAce I entered the feeling around me smelt like a burning hell. I guess we all know why thAt just like the heaven I felt was somewhere I was never allowed. 12/10/2018 0 Comments The Morning AfterWasn't sure wether it would be worth it or not.
I kept Imagining a thousand ways of how it'll go down. Over thinking it of course I was but how does one picture perfection. Dreaming about it I was but is this what I really wanted ?. Maybe I should just shelter myself in this misery I create a Oblivion sadness. But what creates this friction or force between us. Temptation only builds the first few months. What holds the forever is not nothing. We live in a world where we learn to accept that love cannot last forever. So why does this damage us, Why does this hatred take over inevitably. Questions bother us day and night and keeps us awake so don't question yourself. Just don't deny this strange entity take you away and you'll comeback. Once again I escaped what could have been to what I will never have tomorrow... 6/10/2018 0 Comments Troubled SelfWhy can't our minds get over what they're supposed to ?
It's not simple to solve the never ending questions in our minds. It worries me but only if we could simplify the very existence of our mindset. Everyday we challenge ourselves with these dreams that we forget about, But what if they were the reality of tomorrow ?. Troubled self I say without faith in me. Troubled self I say to the world not realizing there is a God out there... I see a dawn of my own time yet I question it. Neglecting my empathy because I don't believe ? I was into the Illusion everyone was troubled. Until I realized not the world was me but I am the creator of my own world. So I let myself breakdown and cradle myself to the point I scream out my lungs to the top of my voice and ... Trouble myself I said to my mind. 5/10/2018 0 Comments The Patient Ice ManIn the time of dark Autumn it was.
I fail to meet this queen, I fail to understand what destiny holds for us. Deep down I feel this energy growing stronger and stronger. Knowing when I meet her, I feel this emptiness in me will be filled with joy. Just like the summer sunshine, I'll see a smile of a thousand angels. Thinking too much can fade away the spark we hold but I see your face everywhere I go. You confuse me by these words and I can't tell wether you share the same interest or if you think of me as an outsider. May this short story find you and help you understand we are more than a chapter. Perhaps a story of our own creation that will forever live on and let there be hope to see many more to come. 2/10/2018 0 Comments She Is A RoseWhy I don't need somebody to love me is a question that will forever remain hidden.
But don't cut me down and throw me away to the dark. I was once a woman of dignity, So i'm looking for an open door to escape because this life is just a ritual. Sometimes even in the sunniest of days I see the ugly in me when deep down inside I know, I know that touching the sky will never be my end but my dream to be able to exhaust my abilities to infinity. And I'd to let go the things I can't be and focus on the things that I am. One thing I know for sure, The world cherishes me like the Queen I am but will I remain in the sanctuary for eternity, Will I be praised by mother natures affection like the soul. I travel without my other half left at home and move to a wild mystic land full of thorns. I am reborn but with no cause and only self love. So I am a Rose in the dark dealing with my pain as the world shines me away. 28/9/2018 0 Comments The Fire In MeNot too far from home was my heart.
Not too far from my heart was my rage Not too far from my rage was my pain. Far from the pain was my lust Far from the lust was my truth Far from the truth was you. The truth only lies in your eyes and deep down you can't portray the love for what you have damaged cannot be undone. It's permanent mark lights the Fire in me and you don't deserve me. So I let the fire ignite and destroy my every tomorrow... why ? The path of destruction was only my beginning until the light can shine on you again. 14/9/2018 0 Comments Give Me Those Ocean EyesUnder the blue to me the sky is the only limit.
I look upon the clouds and there was nothing but white weirdly shaped clouds pass by me each day. Yet so fascinating, So relaxing in ways I don't understand. So give me those Ocean Eyes. No one dares to reach us, reach me down here. They know the truth, Everyone knows the truth. Deep down they desire the inevitable of the lost souls in depth. So give me those Ocean Eyes. No torch nor the power of the Gods can brighten our darkness. The surface of the deep blue can be unseen and shall forever remain hidden. Every soul lingers with their own darkness and so I ask myself... So give me those Ocean Eyes. Swimming from one earth to another. Life shall go on until the end of time, Until the end of me. But we must go on because in order to find ourselves we must get lost The heart wants the most impossible. So give me those Ocean Eyes. 26/8/2018 0 Comments MistakesIt wasn't even the first time I thought I had her,
I blame the never ending exciting inner me that bothers my personality. To what do I owe the pleasures of my adventures, And why does it bother my heart not once but over and over again... It just isn't the existence of the beautiful world that envy's my heart but the lust I seek in it. Yet I fail to understand why and how I cannot achieve my happiness. Success is what they seek but they do not see it in my eyes. It's more painful to think what they want than to give what my heart can offer, So I move, Move to a more pro founding journey only to repeat the damage yet again. Mistakes have taken over my life and made major impacts that mentally damage the person I needed you to be and now you're just a ghost I dream off as the day goes by. So I say goodbye to every mistake that I didn't hold onto and move on to a world that does not exist of mistakes but pure soulful grace and angels that are free from their demons... But that's a tale for another time. Good-Bye Mistakes. 9/8/2018 0 Comments The Coffee This is not just any feeling or experience.
This is the woman who made me feel I've got butterflies in my tummy. This is how a story of a beautiful woman took away my heart within seconds. This is something I want her to witness when the time is right. To a girl whose eyes reminds me of the deep blue sea and it's beauty. She portrayed and left me speechless beyond my imaginations every time I saw her. Her cherry Blossom scent blow through my face and gave me the cold shivers every time she walked by me. What is it I seek in destiny. I want to create my own but I'm falling apart and I feel she's the answer to everything. Her deep entity makes me want to her find her real identity. The future is bigger than us but to me she's the only future I seek in time to come. Many things I'm never sure of but there's more to her than meets the eye... In life we don't always get the person we dream of but the dream of the person that exists within us. 29/6/2018 0 Comments You Call His NameWe found each other in another world.
You suffered pain like no other. You gave the world what they needed but that left you empty. You belonged with me, But you resisted. You ran from your past, I was your past. You didn't call out what could have been your future. You held back time after time but that was it. You lured me into your pain that you very much feared to be your death. The only death in a million years that you would not wake up from Is only if you had called out his name... Sometimes In life if we do not seek out our loved ones, We just destroy ourselves and are left lost for eternity 25/6/2018 0 Comments In The HeartIt was in the heart I devourer the impossible reasons to move on
It was in the heart I accomplish the hatred built in you to hate It was in the heart I achieve my sadness that'll haunt me for a lifetime. It was in your heart that what you saw was success It was in your heart that everything was beautiful It was in your heart where you found no other love. It was in our heart to see a future beyond the future It was in our heart to believe in a family It was in our heart to find peace in each other. It was the heart blamed for all the pain It was the heart that left us broken And It was the heart that destroyed itself. 30/6/2017 0 Comments PurposeFrom walking away and sleeping at the edge, why is my pupose lost.
All this time I just needed to see you and how time made me weaker. Would allow me to feel and torcher me for my guilt. Maybe you're thinking of the same or you are past it, accepeted it... Accepted the fact I'll never walk past you and smile and take you back. This lifetime has punished me for deeds I am yet to discover but I believe you are my way out, My light in dark, My reality and my escape to our neverland. The stars in your eyes would be my only weakness and when you'd ask me why I was staring ?. I'd smile and be quiet because you were the most beautiful when you'd catch me shying away. Maybe I never said you really deserved to hear, All I did was write it away and that was it. You protected me with all the love and care one could ever ask for. I felt so guilty and pushed you away. Hurting you more than it hurt me from within. A distant stranger I became and as we parted I grew a illness of the loneliness, A patient of the damaged. The world around me became dark, feeling like I had nothing left. A curse that I'm left to live with. And all i needed was a purpose to live in. 2/1/2017 0 Comments Beautiful DestinationsRight through the pouring rain,
Came a sign into a vision for tomorrow. When my eyes cannot see in the naked light. Following my heart in a path I believe to realize that there is no religion that can save me. No clear sky to look upon to. I carry on my journey moving on, moving to a destination only to discover the beauty of it. I feel my blood rushing, Killing myself of what I did not hold on to... I don't have to remind myself of such a life I want, Such a perfect moment I dreamt of And such a path that I seek is nothing than a Beautiful Destination. |